Wednesday, July 23, 2008
ever since that thing happened
life has never been the same
i don't know if getting emo suddenly helps
but thats what i am doing so if i sleep in class or what
i am just sick and heart broken
there is no more smile on my face guys and thats until things get better
leave me alone k?
i am not going to blame you
just leave me alone
time will heal everything
weird things happened today
my mind just flashed backed
1i, 2g, 3f, npcc chalets that i have went to
trips, malacca su zhou
thinking back at the really fun times we had
i really wish i could stay at those times forever
when every one was just happy together
you know?
really happy playing playing and playing
if anyone allows i will stay there forever
just living day by day with the people who were them
in the old classes
just having fun together like we did before
how i feel now is just rubbish
and thats the only apt word to describe it
rubbish.
my life is rubbish too
if not for her and my friends and family
i would have been gone long ago
and anyone know what is the happiest thing in my life?
yes
its when i had friends like josephine simon gerald samuel dominic and druga and many more
and when i got her, ying²
those were the happiest moments in my life
but i have blown it
myself
i am to be blamed for everything
ya
i was just not tactful enough
but i too deserve a second chance don't i?
it would be super unfair for me to just end everything like that
the mutual trust that has been built for so long
i really cannot take another one of these
cause losing a friend is as good as sending them to the gallows and never seeing them again
i don't want that and all this
broken and breaking stuff
its tearing me apart
just feel like crying when i think about it
you know?
like really cry your heart out kind
i don't know.
how you feel druga
i know you still care
but give me a chance
please.
now i hope i offend you no more writing this on my blog
if its does
i will be most willing to take it off straight away
i promise
those things i said in my previous post was just anger and a hurt ego
like you too
so why can't you just forget?
i am in no position to say anymore things cause ii don't have any power to do anything
whether you want to reconcile is your choice i have no say
but i believe you are not such a person and if you are then
lets all hope time will heal the wounds
for the last time
thanks for everything =)
I Tried To Warn You at;
10:27 PM